So, first, this blog on selfishness re-runs on Thinking Moms’ Revolution. Hmmm, I think to myself. Perhaps I need to refresh my point of view…
Then the next day I saw a post on Facebook in Garner Style’s feed and it featured a plus-sized woman who goes by @biggalyoga on Instagram UPSIDE DOWN. My mind…blown. She’s allowed to do that?
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Day 16 of the #SelfLovingYogis March 16-Day Yoga Challenge! Last day of the challenge! It's been so awesome to see you all participating! You guys are all so wonderful! Even after the challenge I hope guys can keep using the hashtag #selflovingyogis to keep promoting self love through yoga! When things get tough we sometimes have to stop and take some self love and care for ourselves. I felt like my body was burning out during the challenge, and had to make sure I took care of body. Always listen to your body and take care of it! We all get discouraged in our practice, but remember to not take it so seriously and have fun! Much love to you all! 💜Leggings by @fractal.9 💜 Swim top by @Forever21 ✳ How to join in: 1. Take photo of yourself in the daily pose. 2. Tag #SelfLovingYogis 3. Tag/follow myself @biggalyoga and the Sponsors @stardancerdesigns and @fractal.9 💛OPTION 1 You can choose to do the daily pose I am doing for the 16 days or OPTION 2 You can choose to do your own set of daily poses for the 16 days. 💛 either way as long as you are promoting self love through your yoga practice! #yogalove #yogatherapy #yogaforeverybody #yogaforeveryone #yogaateverysize #yogaatanysize #yogaforall #bodypositive #bodypositivity #selflove #bodylove #effyourbeautystandards #effyourbodystandards #yoga #yogi #yogini #curvyyoga #curvyyogi #plussizeyoga #fatyoga #biggalyoga #yogachallenge #namaste #motivated #motivation #lovethebodyyouarein #yogachallenge #yogaeverydamnday #yogaaday
That was the word I got stuck on…allowed. Since when has there been a gate keeper of what’s allowed? The body police? And that’s when it hit me that I’m the gate keeper. I’m the body police. Gah. That was a hard nugget to swallow.
So for 16 days (plus a few more since the challenge wrapped up) I choked that nugget down, put myself on a mat or on the floor and pushed my own limits. It may not look like it, but limits were pushed. I swear.
I participated in @biggalyoga’s Instagram challenge called #SelfLovingYogis. It was completely unexpected. And I loved it. I think one day I’ll look back and identify this little challenge as a turning point in my health and healing.
It hasn’t been a day or night, 180 degree turn around kind of a situation. It’s been more of a subtle shift. It was a “light dawns on Marblehead” kind of thing and realization spread slowly.
I’m hopeful in a way I haven’t been previous to this challenge. I’ve been in need of shift of perspective and I think healing mama is only going to help healing my babies. And now I’m doing #yogaeverydamnday.